Monday, June 02, 2008

so this is how a death feels.

my fish died this morning. i saw it floating, bloated, mouth open. i'm still crying and mourning over its death. i don't know when the tears will stop, but i'm sure i wouldn't want to have another fish in the next 20, 30 years. Johann was a good fish. it was the best fish. it was very flexible and almost always happy and knew how to adapt. but this one, it didn't survive. it was a tragedy. the loss left me feeling dispirited.

Johann has been with me for more than 2 years. there are a lot of should-haves, but i know that wouldn't bring Johann back.

i am hurt and in pain. and it's the kind that will be noted down and would not soon be forgotten.

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to --- : ya, whatever.

D at 9:00 AM

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